October 9, 2018- Exhale.
Can I talk to y'all
for a sec??
So I don't
"vague blog" very often, if at all, but as I'm working on revitalizing
my blog, I am also re-learning about the benefits of being transparent again.
Simply put: I'm a very
deliberate person. I want something, I go for it, and I aim to keep it. There
is no place in my life for inconsistency, not anymore. That being said if my
"gut" constantly is telling me one thing---and I find myself
logically trying to make sense of things...things I know I can feel but can't
explain, it's time for me to take a step back and properly listen to myself as
whole.
In doing so, I have cut
myself off from a lot of things: drinking, certain eating/lifestyle habits, and
most importantly--people. There is a balance to it all, and even at 30 I'm
still learning how to do it, folks. And there is nothing wrong with that:
partly that is why my circle of support is so small, I'm still proudly
single, and I'm at the best point in my career---I listened. And while some
may think this is questionable: my gut, when it comes to my choices and life, is
rarely wrong. What I choose to do some may not agree with but hey---it's my
life. No disrespect, but like I've said before "it's okay to selfish when
it comes to your own destiny." I thank God for that discernment.
As most know, I'm very
private about my personal life and only post about major moves and
accomplishments just to stay present, but this need for transparency is bigger
than me or the "perception" of me. It's finally giving this small
body a place to speak loudly. Better late than never--so here's to keeping
myself first and the restart of my personal blog.
#finallyexhaled #kairos #breathing
#existing #keepingmyselffirst
