Exhale.

October 9, 2018- Exhale.

Can I talk to y'all for a sec??

So I don't "vague blog" very often, if at all, but as I'm working on revitalizing my blog, I am also re-learning about the benefits of being transparent again. 

Simply put: I'm a very deliberate person. I want something, I go for it, and I aim to keep it. There is no place in my life for inconsistency, not anymore. That being said if my "gut" constantly is telling me one thing---and I find myself logically trying to make sense of things...things I know I can feel but can't explain, it's time for me to take a step back and properly listen to myself as whole. 

In doing so, I have cut myself off from a lot of things: drinking, certain eating/lifestyle habits, and most importantly--people. There is a balance to it all, and even at 30 I'm still learning how to do it, folks. And there is nothing wrong with that: partly that is why my circle of support is so small, I'm still proudly single, and I'm at the best point in my career---I listened. And while some may think this is questionable: my gut, when it comes to my choices and life, is rarely wrong. What I choose to do some may not agree with but hey---it's my life. No disrespect, but like I've said before "it's okay to selfish when it comes to your own destiny." I thank God for that discernment.

As most know, I'm very private about my personal life and only post about major moves and accomplishments just to stay present, but this need for transparency is bigger than me or the "perception" of me. It's finally giving this small body a place to speak loudly. Better late than never--so here's to keeping myself first and the restart of my personal blog.

#finallyexhaled #kairos #breathing #existing #keepingmyselffirst