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Monday, September 29, 2014

Losing What You Have

September 29, 2014- Losing What You Have

You know my biggest fear as a performer is losing my ability to remember and retain lines and…losing my voice. Not voice as in my opinion but as in my actual voice. I am sure people have their own remedies as to how to protect and take care of your "temple", your body. But one thing I have noticed that I don't do enough is sleep. Sleeping is imperative for you to recharge and get your body ready for whatever may come next. Funny, I read somewhere that scientists cannot prove why we actually NEED to sleep but it is something that we just naturally do. Interesting, huh? 

I need rest. Spiritually I have been so exhausted…I feel like I dancing between lives…the whole "balance" piece. Now the workload has picked up on the performance end of things and so has my job…and…(sighs) Breathe Brit. One Day at a Time.

I never feel like I rest enough…and next thing you know I am coming down with a cold or migranes…so before you run down to the drug store and stock up on meds galore…drink a little water, take a vitamin or two, and sleep, sleep, SLEEP. 

One thing I always tell myself: Even God took time to take a rest. (smiles)


Saturday, September 27, 2014

Auto Pilot

September 27, 2014- Auto Pilot

I wake up. I pray. I shower. Brush my teeth. Put on my clothes. Go to work. Lunch. Get off work. Call my sister. Go home. Fix dinner. Eat. Facebook. Pray. Go to sleep. Wake Up. and it is the same routine all over again the next day. The monotony has now become so repetitive that it is almost peaceful. Funny, I shared time with two very important women in my life this week and each of them…shared this same revelation. When asked how are you doing, we each answered: "Fine" or "Living day by day" or "Blessed" or "I am doing alright". And then when I go to further explain myself…the only thing that came to my mind was AUTO PILOT. I feel as though I am on auto pilot and they both agreed. I feel like something big is on the rise, you know? And this state of "content" is not necessarily a bad thing.

And that is the point of this blog. Sometimes as an Artist or as a person, we feel like we can do more and go after more. When in reality, we are in this state of rest and content because we are being setup for something greater. This is the first time in the past 8 years or so I am just worried about Brit. Not "if I am making someone else happy" or "if I have all of the answers" or whatever. The simplicity of just waking up and being all about myself is so fucking refreshing. And that is how it should be. While you have the time to be alone---enjoy it. And be happy with what you have now… and yes DREAM about what more you are going to have. As I was driving home this evening, I realized that i am not happy with where I am with my life right now. I wish I was full fledge acting out in LA or up in NY performing 3 to 4 times a day and have the auditions pouring in. Sounds so ideal but the thing is…it is not my time right now. And every step I am taking now will push me towards it because my priorities are FINALLY getting in order.

I am allowing for my steps to ordered and that is not an easy task for a "go-getter" spirit like myself but I have found so much resonance in being by myself. The pattern of the past few months have been a great tool. Remember to live…not just exist. 

So take thee away Capt…I am readying myself for the flight. 


Wednesday, September 24, 2014

Something Out of Nothing

September 24, 2014- Something Out of Nothing

Have you ever gotten into a situation or a place that originally was meant to be one thing but in the end turned out to be something more or even greater than you imagined? That is the beauty of the unexpected. With being an Artist, we are sometimes given an empty canvas. And not just a blank sheet of paper, but maybe it's music notes with no rhythm, a stage with no set, or a dance with no technique. It is our job to make something out of nothing. And that is what should get you going every day. Look at what is in front of you and ask yourself "what more can I make of this?" 

 Indianapolis, IN.---September 2014
Not always an easy question to ask…especially in a society that practically spells everything out for you and hands everything to you. Being able to be creative is our fuel. Recently, I took a trip to Indianapolis. Had NOTHING to do with performing or acting…NOTHING. But miraculously, something came out of nothing. It was after our first day of conference and I went to grab myself some dinner…and while I was waiting on my take-out from P.F. Changs (yum), I started up a conversation with this woman. She just so happened to be from ATL. And Atlanta has been a location I have been scouting for a while…you know for acting opportunities and whatnot. And I have only met other actors or music producers from there. No one who actually is FROM there and build their business there and could speak on the benefits of a young adventurous, creative, professional woman placing her marks on the area. Not only was she completely open and kind, she was a woman of faith,  a woman of color, and….an ARTIST herself. She was a flight attendant by trade but the business that she had in ATL…well let's just say "the angels were looking down on me that evening"! ANNNNNDD not just with her, even on the flights to and from Indianapolis, I sat next to a guy that pulled up my IMDb page right in front of me and pulled up the website for Precinct 757! All because he was invested in what I had to say! Such a blessing!

Needless to say, always seek the opportunity beyond the eye. Stay well-versed. Know about current events, know about what makes you unique and your skills. Take an ordinary day and make it extraordinary…sounds cliche but when has it ever gone wrong when using that approach… hmmm? Don't worry…I'll wait for your answer. 


Thursday, September 18, 2014

Assess. Adjust.

September 18, 2014- Assess. Adjust.

            How many times have we noticed something wrong or an area of improvement in ourselves and…did ABSOLUTELY nothing about it? Seriously. I am talking about noticing something about yourself that has been a hindrance and it has truly effected your growth as an artist. Maybe you are too simple-minded? Or perhaps you are too open-minded? Too free-spirited? Or just don’t let go enough? I believe for someone to truly want to change something about them…it is from within.

            It shouldn’t take your Acting Teacher drilling it into your head that you need to make the necessary move or your dance teacher pressing you to work more on technique more than just pure drive. What you must do as an Artist is ASSESS yourself and make the necessary ADJUSTMENTS to better yourself. There is always room for “improvement”. Like I said before we are always learning.

            This message came to me last night as I was working on myself spiritually. Like I mentioned in my previous blog, I let go of something that has literally been on my assessment list for 6 years. And even though it took 6 LONG years to finally let it go…I did. I made an adjustment that now I no longer have to carry with me. With you…it could be a dirty habit. Smoking, gossiping, judging, judging yourself… if it is a habit that is preventing things from happening… maybe it is time to let go of that habit.

            Mine was the need of a relationship. Constant companionship. Like I knew I could do it mentally but I always thought I needed someone by my side EVERY step of the way. Silly me, I didn’t realize it at the time but that other person was another thing I had to be accountable for. Which is fine; however, I was young….shoot I still am… and I still had so much at my fingertips and basically I kept snatching my hand back because…it wasn’t aligning with who I was with. Crazy, the things you will do for love…but what is even crazier is what LOVE does to you. Not only does it bring you bliss…it can sometimes make you blissfully unaware of things.

            Well…shoot. What’s that saying? Uh… hmm….oh yeah “Ignorance Is Bliss”. (smiles)

            No, I am not “ANTI-LOVE”, I am just more aware…and made the assessment about myself. And now, I am working on finally “adjusting” myself. So that Brittney can love her own relationship to herself...more than the need of another.  I sound like I neglect myself, don’t I? Well I wouldn’t call it neglect, I just distract myself. And with that distraction came anxiety, angst, and fear.  And what’s even funnier that in the end, you are dealing with it alone ANYWAYS! That is the way of the world. The universe won’t let you hurt yourself…so it will create masses of situations that make you have to decide what is best. I spoke on that before.

            Because in the end, I am the one ignoring a talent of mine for the love another. When…when I should have just simply assessed the situation and ACKNOWLEDGED that while it is okay to love and be passionate about multiple things…there should be a balance to it.


Wednesday, September 17, 2014

6 Years

September 17, 2014- 6 Years

6 Years

I am a very committed individual. Once i put my mind to something I go after it with full intention and support. Even the smallest thing like…tying my shoe. I make sure that is the best damn "bunny rabbit" loop you have ever seen! (laughs) No but seriously, I am dedicated. And for 6 years, I have had a connection to something that has at times been my motivator and at other times my hindrance. Well I can finally say that it is over. I know longer feel the need to carry with me anymore. I know that my path is clearly defined and I just have to take the risk and go forth. 

Am I scared? Hell yeah. I am used to having this by my side. But I realize that it was only a clutch. Not that I was "using" it but I have was co-dependent when all the strength that I need was within me. So I thank you…I thank you for finally giving me a reason to fully let go. There will always be a place in my heart for you…believe me. Always but the space is so minuscule in the grand scheme of my life now. And I am looking forward to the journey ahead… and not having you as a weight or…holding my hand. 

Bri Bri

Monday, September 15, 2014


September 15, 2014- Alive.

I have been living but I haven’t felt alive like this since my sophomore year of college. Last night… I was at “home”. Nothing is like being around fellow artists who put out whatever joy, talent, angst, frustration, or just plain THEMSELVES out there. I loved it! I have always claimed the stage as my home. I, for one, will never be someone who will stop learning. I don’t care if I master every technique, every style, whatever. I will never be closed off to learning.

Last night…I finally took the opportunity to attend a “workshop” that has been going on in this area for about a year or so now. Shoot, maybe even longer. Hosted by Marlon Hargrave, it is the Actor’s Open Stage. I am sure you have heard of it, if you are from the Hampton Roads region. And if not, and you are an artist that just happens to be visiting here on a Sunday evening---go the fuck to it! Literally, it will set your mind at ease. I am not going to lie. After my 4 grad school rejections, basically getting rejected by my boyfriend of 2 years BECAUSE of the rejections and my inabilities to be “normal”, and getting released from my job…I was out of it. I felt lost.
I was hung up on trying to be normal. In my mind, I was reconsidering performing…I thought I was realizing that…well maybe it is just not for me at this time. I don’t know. But nevertheless, I took a hiatus. A very personal hiatus. I excommunicated myself from social media and kept myself surrounded by grounded people. (laughs) Grounded people who didn’t have a creative bone in their bodies! I was DYING, man! Seriously, I landed a 9 to 5 job, which is not too bad, but something was missing. And to an Artist that “something” is different for everyone.  I was missing my spark again, that thing that set Brittney apart from other actresses. And…I hate to admit it but I doubted myself. I lost faith in me.

And for the first time in months, I felt alive again. I have been itching to get back to the stage. Film acting has its perks, believe me! But…it is so moment-to-moment sometimes. But the stage… I was so shaky after my first piece. The adrenaline pulsing through my veins all the way out through my fingertips. The way I go about things is that I observe and listen first and then I react. And I saw that the space, in which I was in, was safe. And I performed. My piece fell out of me as easy as breathing. And then later that night---OH GOD! I got to do an organic improv. Nothing is more satisfying to me than two actors or more connecting without any further premise or set-up. Just feeding off of each other. And that right there---confirmed it. This is what the fuck I am suppose to be doing with my life! Learning! Acting! And then, by the grace of God, teaching. Because I cannot let all of my passion rest within just me.

So I thank Marlon Hargrave for creating a space right here in Hampton Roads where an Artist, who has been doing this for over 15 years, can feel free again. You are a skillful individual who is knowledgeable and confident, and knows EXACTLY what they are talking about. And anybody who wants to challenge you on that--- tell ‘em “ Take the stage…let’s see what you can do!”


Friday, September 12, 2014


September 12, 2014- 110%

Day Three of this dreaded headache…ugh. But the show still goes on and with that being said I want to talk about allowing your mood to affect your progress. For years, I had a problem with allowing my energy to drawn to a wrong point rather than focusing on what needed to be done. For example, I am one of the most passionate people you will probably ever meet.

I take pride and honor in everything I do, every person and thing in my life. To me, anything I put my mind to I go after it at 100%. ALWAYS! So what happens when you find yourself trying to be 100% committed to a relationship? A failing relationship and all you can do is focus on how to rekindle and make things right…but slowly you are losing sight of your own prize. My goals. I am going to go ahead and open up a little bit. This past year I was auditioning for MFA programs. I have been out of undergrad for about 2 years and it was time to develop my craft further. So I sort after 4 strong MFA programs that not only would compliment me and my acting style but broaden my professionalism as a performer. And to be honest, I was at a “neutral” high. Not natural, neutral. I was at a job that was flexible and rewarding, in a relationship I thought was CLEARLY heading towards marriage, friendships were solid, blah.

I should have known…the red flags were so clear. When I started discussing my plans for the future…slowly everything became about him. Or us. Which is fine, but it was in a worrying type of way. Everything was a question: what if this or that. What about if you have rehearsal until 3am and I cooked dinner and you we don’t get to share it together…which sounds really sweet, right? I mean I wanted to be like “well, warm that shit up” (laughs) But anyways… it was perpetual worry and doubt. And I found myself reassuring him more than me prepping for these auditions. Mentally getting ready and in the character. It wasn't like switching on the charm, I wanted to come prepared.  Prepared for these possibly life changing auditions and I was distracted. I wasn’t psyching myself out, I just wasn’t focus.

And I bombed them, one after the other.  Some I knew right then and there, others…were a shock. Am I totally blaming them on the relationship? Hell no. But what I am saying is I am taking ownership for the fact that I didn’t put me first. And I let myself become imbalanced and I was more concerned about making a life FOR us rather than…I don’t know.  It’s crazy how after the fact he was more devastated than I was about not getting in. Not because of my hard work or dedication, oh no…it was because it was no longer in my hands about our future!! Nuts! And I wondered when did it all come down to me? Me paving the way for us. I was completely unequally yoked.

Some days I just wish I had a do-over, you know? My point is: Be the driving force behind your passion, don’t let your passion drive you. If you feel like you are losing yourself with something or someone, then maybe that is PRECISELY where you are NOT supposed to be.


Tuesday, September 9, 2014

Unfinished Business.

September 9, 2014- Unfinished Business.

Struggling for the words today. Not because I don’t feel like writing. Mainly because there is so much to be said. I think today I am going to speak on ‘making things a reality’. Rather than having something just exist in your mind, you put out the necessary effort to create it. I love Dreamers. People who sit and think and meander, mentally, to one thought to the next. It is amazing to think on that level, when the creativity keeps flowing and flowing. But what happens when you sit back and realize that all of this was ONLY in your head?

I want you to take the time to see through ONE idea that you have. Just one.  I hate unfinished business. This is a challenge that I am taking myself. Start something and finish it. The feeling of accomplishment is so overwhelmingly satisfying that you will be itching to start and FINISH your next project.  I have a couple of projects that I have in my back pocket. Some that I have shared with others, some I have jotted down notes here and there. I am taking personal accountability for my incompletions. Perhaps even confiding in someone who will give you that extra push is a good thing as well.
"Sometimes you don’t have search for your NEXT big idea, you may have already thought of it…and now you just have to complete it."


Sunday, September 7, 2014

Small But Mighty.

September 7, 2014- Small But Mighty.

Believing in something that cannot be seen is human nature. Landing a role, getting to work on a film set of your favorite director, getting a job that you KNOW you are not qualified for, etc. To some, it is called having Faith. To others, it is called Hope. In the midst of all of the convoluted things occurring around the world and even in our own backyard, we still have hope. Hope that the next day will get better. The seed of hope need not be any larger than a grain of sand or even…a mustard seed. You ever seen a mustard seed? One of the smallest on Earth, but what comes from that seed with nurture, light, and pressure…are the fruitful limbs of the mustard herb casting its branches to the surface for light. 

That is you and me. Small in the busyness of this world yet with the right guidance, mindset, and pinch of Hope can soon take over and produce something great. Something that all can benefit from. I mean that is why I create my craft. I create to be seen, so why not create something that can be seen and HELP? Seen and INSPIRE? We all need a bigger purpose than just "I do it because it makes me feel good". Rather than asking the "who, what, when, where, and how"…ask this: who ELSE, what ELSE, where ELSE… what more could you do with your abilities? 

Have a strong and blessed week, everyone.


Friday, September 5, 2014

Decisions, Decision!

September 5, 2014- Decisions, Decisions!

Quick! I just got offered a gig and I need to take two days in a row off from work and we are in the middle of a financial deadline that is due on the final day of shooting…what should I do?? Oh, did I forget to mention that this role is for a featured walk-on you have been auditioning and trying to get for about 4 or 5 months!?

This happens to me all the time. Not in the dire sense of an extremely overwhelming deadline at work but having to decide between my duality of my job and craft. It is exhausting and stressful, no doubt about it. I mean in the general you have to ask yourself if a two -day gig is worth you possibly losing your job with your decent salary. Or sometimes we are plagued with having to choose between one gig over the other. In the end, you have to decide what is best for you. I always tell myself that if I was given this one opportunity, then another will come. And that applies to both jobs and your craft. And hey! On a personal note, it applies to the people you cherish as well. You may have to make decisions that in the end doesn't benefit the both of you, but is what it is for the best, in general.

One of the hardest talks I have ever had was the “Where is My Life is Going” talk.  And for someone like me who is so goal-oriented, it was different. It was with my mother and she has always stressed the importance of having a “Plan B”. And while I am sitting there… practically getting reamed by her harsh approach, I am holding in my hands my professional resume. I have a skill set that is out of this world: I am highly technology- savvy, a people person, years of sales experience, and development experience, I can go on and on…and as I am looking down at my resume, I see my tears splash unto the paper. Here—in my hands were ALL of my attempts of a Plan B. And I was tired of feeling guilty about them. I am proud of all the experience I have gathered and gained, but that is what Life is about. You live and you learn. You learn that when one door closes, another one always opens. You just have to be ready when the knock comes.

And for the first time in years, I let her know how important my craft is to me and now I am sharing that with you.


Thursday, September 4, 2014


September 4, 2014- Filming Commercials

You know "commercials"…those catchy-little things that you sometimes glance over because they cut in between your favorite show! lol… But seriously, in this industry I love getting commercial gigs. They are usually fun and short and have a handsome pay off in the end. 

As you delve into the biz of the business, one will learn how to negotiate and review the terms of a commercial contract. Words like payout, web usage only, stipulations apply to other brands, etc. should be second nature to you. Don't leave it ALL in the hands of your agent…know yourself.


Wednesday, September 3, 2014


September 3, 2014- Sacrificing.

Ask yourself this: How many things have you sacrificed for the sake of others?  Or How many things have you sacrificed for your past? Truly think about it.

This is a hard entry for me to write because I am facing a demon that has been plaguing me for years. My past. Things that I thought was let go of and then…something triggers them back to the surface. As an Actor, some may argue that it is not a healthy approach to performing when one substitutes their own life experiences for character development. I am on the fence about that approach. Personally, I have used the technique introduced by Ivana Chubbuck of ‘substitution’.  Substitution is endowing the other actor in the scene with a person from your real life. Hmmm….not too safe if you are playing a victim of sexual or domestic abuse right? Or someone faced with the bouts of parental abandonment and extreme heartache? Hmm?

So nevertheless, this goes to the point of this entry about taking care of yourself. To others, they may not understand why you made the choices that you did or the sacrifices you made but as long as YOU know…that is what matters.  I always say that you can’t help someone who doesn’t want to be helped. But sometimes they don’t know how to let people help them. Funny, for me to be such an outgoing, high-spirited individual, I am actually very private. I keep my friends and my family very close to me and I have a very small circle of people that I trust.

When I am dealing with my past, I mean things that I see haunting my adult life I try my best to eradicate any and everything dealing with it from my life. Why? Because it is easier to handle.  But with that comes a sacrifice. A sacrifice from peace and love…because I have allowed myself to be so consumed with the pain that…the good can’t get in. And sure I am a helluva an actor so I can mask it all day but the truth remains…I take it on alone.

For those who live that way… we have to stop. I am able to hide and submerge myself within my craft but for those who corrode away because they choose to self-implode…stop sacrificing the good because you are use to the bad. Either way is not good I know and I am learning to “let it go”. It is in the past…because you have endured, took it on straight on, you are a SURVIVOR. 

Phew…this was some shit off my back! (smiles) Sorry for the language but that is the truth. My craft and my heart have led me to be harder on myself than anyone I ever crossed paths with. But I am tired of sacrificing my happiest for things I can’t control from the past. Fuck not getting into grad schools on the first try, screw not landing 1, 2, or 20 auditions in a row, forget not “choosing a traditional career path” Fuck it! Screw it! Because when you know you have the ability and the passion inside THERE IS NOTHING that can stop you. Nothing in this universe or beyond can place a stop to what is aligned in your future and destiny. You have a hand in everything. And I am learning to get mine back.