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Thursday, October 21, 2010

Back on my Grind...

So these past few weeks have been pretty tough for me, I must admit. I just had to get my strength back up and my grind on again. And I feel greater than ever. It's crazy how life, sometimes, feels like it ain't going nowhere, you know? Like everything around you is moving forward. People around you are moving forward, but what about you? What about me? And then...I stepped back and realize that I'm propelling faster than ever. It's all about faith and embracing my own blessings. My time will come, my season has only just begun. I am sooo overwhelmed right now and I love it!  I love being busy; it keeps me on my grind! I am currently involved in 4 shows! 4 shows! HA, it's crazy but so awesome! All are equally challenging and quite fun. And I thank God for that.


Monday, October 4, 2010


Well here it is…the truth. The truth is… they are a lot people who were hurt because of my previous blog. I’m sorry. Just as much fear, courage and hurt as it took for me to write Subjectivity at its Best, it’s taking me to admit that I hurt my friends, my peers, my mentors and for that I am sorry. I am sorry for how my words made you feel. By no means did I mean to offend or accuse anyone. And that’s the truth. I was not told to do this, but I felt as though it had to be done. I have removed the blog because its purpose was for to inform not to harm, and even though it served that purpose, I did not expect to lose anything in the process. I hope that you can accept this apology from the deepest pockets of my heart. My words are now ingrained in your memory, but I hope my heart speaks to those thoughts. The truth is…what it is.

"As a face is reflected in water, so the heart reflects the real person." Proverbs 27:19


And it starts now...

It's funny that was my facebook status a week or so ago. So this morning I came in from a very "so-so" yesterday to find comments under my blog titled "Subjectivity at its Best" that were not so...hmmm...supportive. And I expected that. I honestly did. I mean am I hurt by the comments? Yes. Will it effect me and my actions? Yes it has effected me deeply, yet I will continue to seek the truth. I will approach the situation at hand with a little more "tact"; however this blog is my personal spill, you know? And I chose to candid and naked about it. Open about it.

I was told by one of my commentors, three things: 1) That I deeply hurt someone he cared about, 2) He has zero patience for actors who blame other actors for not getting cast and 3) I need to take a nice long hard look myself. WOW! Well in response to #1, the person that was deeply hurt MUST be someone I know. Which means, that I am deeply hurt that they are hurt. By no means, did I say that they couldn't do the job. I didn't. It's just...when you are as passionate about my art form as I am, you don't understand why others don't understand that. Now, I am not sure who, I am not sure who I've hurt but I will use this as an apology. It was quite harsh how I worded it, however, I never claimed that you couldn't do the job. I never said you couldn't do it. I'm truly sorry...

#2: I never blamed anyone for not being cast. Period. That wasn't my focus. I'm very sure I never said that.

#3: Sometimes it's hard to face yourself; however, in this case if I hadn't faced myself I wouldn't have wrote my blog "Subjectivity at its Best" . This is the truth I face when I look in the mirror: An actor that has been at a university for 2 years, given ample amount of time and effort, loves its people and staff, has the talent to succeed in this department and business, and has not been able to shine. I am very grateful for all the work that I have been given and done, but... I'm about to graduate. I am about to graduate and I feel as though I have left nothing...I've learned plenty.   But that's what I see when I take a long hard look at myself.

I would like to take this time to personally apologize to anyone I have offended. If it's who I think it is, you know that I love you and have much respect for you. I just don't appreciate the circumstances in which this happened.

Thank you....