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Saturday, June 4, 2016

So Umm.... 2016 Mid-Year Catch-Up



June 4, 2016- 2016 Mid-Year Catch-Up

You all know by now that when I take a long hiatus from writing my personal blog that something is being STIRRED UP! And y’all, the recipe for my life right now is delicious! (Laughs)

Not only did I complete my first year of grad school, I am now…wait for ita published author! Literally, I wrote a book! That is how I am telling people. Over the past two years, I have been blogging about finding yourself artistically and balancing your worlds between the traditional workplace and artistic creativity. Finally those thoughts have been transferred into book form and available to all artists and individuals around the world. That is such a daunting yet refreshing thought. Am I expecting to be a New York bestseller!? Yes, one day but for now… I will settle in the fact that I started a project and completed it.

The book is titled Keep Calm and Create On: Words of Encouragement from One Artist to the Next. Back in November 2015, I wrote a blog here about shifting my artistic paradigm from personal to public. Keep Calm and Create On is designed to feed an individual’s artistic soul with inspiration for pushing forward. The book reads very much like my blog: personal, raw, and honest.

So after a long two-year process, including conceptualizing, over 15 drafts, intense copy editors, 22 amazing reviewers, designers, and publishing, it is finally here! Not only does this book exemplify my spirit as an artist, it speaks on my road of perseverance and strength.

I wrote Keep Calm and Create On: Words of Encouragement from One Artist to the Next because of my experiences being an artist in a field so saturated with looks and stereotypes over talent and skill. This book is about embracing your creative spirit and balancing your artistic duality.

While the book is complete, I am still early on in my journey. Nonetheless, please take the time to like and support the book!

 Available at

Miss you all so much, Brittney


                                                           

Wednesday, February 10, 2016

The Lonely Actress: Redux

February 10, 2016- The Lonely Actress: Redux

Another year, another cycle around the sun... It's amazing how after a year so much can change and be revealed to you, you know? Coming up on yet another Valentine's Day, I am still single. And like I said before in my original blog The Lonely Actress, this time of year is particularly more difficult than others because of all of the commercialization of "love". I mean sure I would love some of that for myself—let's be real herebut when you are on the outside of the circle, things look a lot different. I am still blessed with my health, my family and friends and yet I still get the sense that something is "missing". 

This year has been a love affair for my soul: I cheated on my hometown by moving to a new state and city... I am falling in love, y'all. There is nothing like being in love with something that challenges you and makes you an even better YOU. It is simply amazing... And if I have to say that was the best "relationship" choice I have made all year, then YES! A change of location is one of the best ways to show yourself that you like to keep things fresh and fun!

Automatically you think just because there's a change of scenery, there is a change in the type of men. Right? Moving to a new city meant, in the dating spectrum, new prospects and I have dated men. Not frequently but I have and I noticed something.... I have a habit of settling. Have you ever been yearning for something so badly that you sort of settle for what you are given rather than waiting for what you asked or prayed for? That is my issue. I would meet these amazing men and these men were God fearing, smart, sensitive, and humorous individuals that made me feel great and wanted. But in each and everyone of them something was missing... And it was usually drive. Each of them were very content with their lives. And although they complained about wanting change, they did nothing to go after it. So here comes Brittney: Miss "Let me be the one who empowers you" and I tried to bring focus and peace to their lives. I didn't realize it at the time but I was enabling them almost to a fault. And in return... I was drained. 

Why am I telling you all of this? Because this was my cycle. I clung to men that didn't necessarily add up to "my standards" and my standards are nothing outrageous believe me... But rather than accepting them for who they are, I started envisioning a future with who they would "potentially" be. Sounds harmless but that is not a relationship. That is not love or support. In a way it is but a person should want to improve themselves and I should be there for THEIR journey. I shouldn't be trying to force them into their journey. When I recognized the cycle, it was always a little too late. By the time I acknowledged what was happening, I was about 6 to 8 weeks into every guy I was dating and I was unhappy. And from there led to this sad almost melodramatic break up or whatnot.

I have to admit something: I was not a very good girlfriend in the past. I was verbally and at times physically abusive. And I am not proud of it. Believe me, I am not. And it has resulted in me questioning my own happiness. This is very very candid and open of me. I spoke about it in a couple of blogs back about being a happy artist and I talked about how I dealt with my anger. Anger management was one of the best things I've ever done myself. Not only was it a true 180 moment for my life, I learned more about my reaction to life and how to healthily handle adversity, both spiritually and mentally. And Lord knows that I have been, for over the past 2 to 3 years, trying to find the strength to cope with what I did in my past. Each day is a challenge and nothing more do I wish for personal forgiveness and the forgiveness of others. I have to be able to forgive Brittney for her past choices…

And that is how I ended up here: Nothing was "missing"...I was just in search of finding an inner peace. I fell into my journey and I was provided with the opportunity to create and do what I love. The love of my life right now should be my craft and the light shined upon that is my faith. And I trust that my own path will be revealed and illuminated before my eyes when it comes to love. And the same for you all as well... Our past is our guide, our future is still being crafted. 

Love,
Brittney


Friday, January 1, 2016

Reflection: 2015

January 1, 2016- Reflection: 2015

We made it. Although it felt like we were going to buck down and crumble, at times, we are now here standing at the cusp of something amazing: a new adventure and journey. But our journeys are not start now at the end of a year, it has been in the works thru the entirety of 2015. This is one of the only times during the year that I don't mind looking at social media and see people updating their twitters or FB statuses. Why? Mainly because it's full of so much positivity. I love seeing people declare goals that they want for themselves. Having the integrity to set and want those goals.

2015 was, by far, the most prolific year of my life so far and I am so very proud of the progress and experiences that I've gone through. I have a lot to reflect on, so much to reflect on and sadly enough the year is ending a little melancholy for me. I realize there are things that won't be with me on my journey as I continue into the next year. And to be honest, it hurts. But it allows for me to move forward. Some I chose to leave behind and some that just dissipated and faded like the seasons. I declared that 2015 would be a year of joy, success, and independence and all of which I experienced. And I'm very grateful that I spoke those things into existence.

Cornerstones for 2016:  Success, Collaboration, Passion, and Focus.

Success
I believe that a lot of success will still continue to fall and appear throughout 2016. Sometimes you have to get out of your own way to reach your highest potential and your highest potential has no ceiling. Remember that. Success for me means I want to accomplish many of my personal goals I set forth through my own strengths and faith. Publishing my book, establishing foundational networking with potential post-graduate companies and opportunities, etc.

Collaboration
Collaboration for me is sharing my goals and passion for outreach and the Arts with others and manifesting in new types of art and theater. I believe a huge part of life as an artist is getting to know and create for and within your community. And what better way to do that than to collaborate with other artists and people. Perhaps it could be creating a supplemental program cultural enrichment in the school community or an Arts mentorship advocacy platform…you never know.

Passion
Passion for 2016 comes more from a personal standpoint. No longer am I going to push my passions for the arts aside to accommodate my passion for a relationship or love. And that goes for relationships between friends or potential mates. I will continue to go about my art with as much vigor and passion that is within my soul and spirit. And I hope to meet people that share and can accept that passion about me

Focus 
This point is very self-explanatory but it mainly means not losing sight of the bigger prize. Getting and going to grad school sets into place why the picture is bigger than my own personal successes. My desires are beyond my own. I want to influence people at large and to do that I have to stay focused. I can't become succumb to the little slumps that may come along. It is easy to only see the lows 
when your sight is set to the ground. Look up, seek higher up, seek your highest potential. 



Happy 2016 New Years! 
The journey is only continuing...